Am I Doing This Right?

This is the question that I come back to most consistently whenever I think about my current lifestyle and what my future will bring. I have some self-confidence issues, and I'm usually pretty certain that I'm doing something wrong. Well, maybe not wrong, but that maybe I'm missing something or there's something that I should be doing in order to make life better/easier/simpler for myself.

Everyone and their mother has a blog, so I should be blogging to get credibility and brand recognition. (Trying, usually failing at this one)

Everyone at my professional level has a mentor and a life plan, so I should go call my old professors and set a tea time. (The one professor that I hung out with in college was a smidge flakey, and would probably just tell me to screw the plan and take more risks)

Everyone in my group of friends is married and owns either a house or a dog, so I should have an investment plan ready for all three of those occassi0ns. (Ok, at least that I have taken care of)

I'm frustrated that I worry so much and keep coming back to this question constantly. I feel as if I don't have as much confidence in myself as I did in high school. Which is saying lot, considering I was an overachieving anorexic back then.

I lamented this fact to my Beau, who, in his absolutely unprecedented wisdom, said "What's right for who? Screw it, you can't spend life worrying about something so subjective. Just live. Duh."

Well, he didn't say "duh" but he could have. Fairly simple, eh?

So I've been pondering my Beau's sage advice and thinking WWAD (What Would Anne (crazy professor) Do), and I think that it' just so easy to get caught up in what other people think, or what they might think, and it's so easy to spend time worrying about what might or might not happen, that I'm taking the easy way out by worrying and thinking and not actually doing anything.

So fuck it. I'm doing shit. I'm taking risks, like moving to Boston and taking up sewing. Why the hell not? I'm the only person that can account for my happiness, and I only have my own expectations to set and live up to. There's no reason, no cause and no time to worry about if it's right or wrong to anyone else.