I WILL get things done

After a 12.5 hour workday I am tired. My brain is numb and my body is finished. It's sad to think that just a few short years ago I was rolling through 18 and 19 hour days as a college student like it was nothing. Then graduation and subsequently, Life, hit.

So far I'm not a fan.

Even 2 years ago, when I lived in this neighborhood of Madison the first time around, I could work all day then go for a long run at night, have dinner with beau, then stay up and read for hours on end. Not necessarily the most exciting routine, but it was at least an accomplishment for me.

I think what was different back in the 'ole college days was the fact that I was so motivated by the unknown. Back in college, I worked my ass off because I thought it might mean something the the REAL WORLD, in the life beyond work. I thought that by mulling over a paper for days meant better quality work, which would be reflected in my GPA, which would be reflected in my future job opportunities and payscale. If mulling over one paper for days could have that singular effect, then continued extended study on other subjects HAD to improve my career options exponentially, right?

Wrong.

Although those little projects and pieces of paper added up along the way to a decent GPA, they were by no means the deciding factor behind what I end up doing with my life. The one thing that I realize now that I'm out of school is that what you produce is not necessarily the final product - it's all about you and you are a continual work in progress. What I NEEDED to learn in college was that the dedication and motivation to do well would serve me far better than just getting an "A" on a paper. That energy and focus I had are the skills that I need to draw on now to get my ass in gear for a new phase in life - a newer and even greater unknown than before. And, as I am sure I will look back on in the future, is that right now I need the perseverance, confidence, and stick-to-it-ness to keep myself going through this next major shift.

The world is still a big space, and I have a lot of work left to do. No rest for the wicked.